Feeling hopeless - in need of support

My history seems to be defeating me. I keep practicing, but nothing is changing in my outer world. I continue to sleep alone with no life partner and no one to talk to. Half a century of repeatedly experiencing devastating heartbreak... After practicing so diligently - not just these past 83 days in the app, but over the past year, as well as doing healing work to shift my negative subconscious beliefs over the past 20 years and heal my traumas - I'm finding it hard to believe that this can be done for me. And I know that certainly doesn't help me to stay in the state of my wish fulfilled!! I'm just feeling hopeless.