Is this the "sabbath"?

Hello fellow manifestors -Excuse my english - it is not my mothers tongue

I am manifesting my ex girlfriend back which
broke up with me under really weird circumstances that were a more dramatic and extremly fast form of a recurring pattern in my life. I sat with it and wrote down and analyzed these patterns for several weeks and assumed my state from them - coming to the conclusion that they all came from myself as source. All the good and the bad. That gave me my courage back, because that cannot be the life i was willing to continue and started to.study the law as deep as i could. I always struggled with visualisation - i tried so hard that i developed a insomnia anf my depression got worse and worse - and began to affirm like crazy which only got me breadcrumps of movement until i discovered assumption stacking/micro assumptions and began to visualise with the help of josephs app. I got the most beautiful movement - from really complicated circumstances.

I think i know now why i struggled so much with the practice of sats - it was because it always was a reaction, hence coming from the "outside" which i understand now as a mere mirror. Today i got up feeling really down and exhausted until i sat down and had the most real sats session of my life. I was so immersed that it took several minutes to come back. I was observing that the fleeting thoughts of lack came from a different "place" that the visualisation which "i" projected and they suddenly grew weak in comparison to the source of imagination. I only was "I am" for a moment - and i just knew that everything which i am decided must be - and that the fleeting thoughts i observed are the construct which the bible calls the naysayer-opposer. Nothing can be greater than source - because there is nothing that not is part of it. The mirror hasnt changed yet - but i know it has to when i rest there until the seed has grown.

Is this the sabbath state? The knowing? The assumption of i am?