Manifesting sp for a month now

I have been trying to manifest my sp for a month now, scripting ,affirmations, and visualising. I do enjoy night time scene as it does feel real but recently I’ve been checking a lot on her stories, analysing everything and I can feel this is making me anxious. I saw her in the club recently and tried to give her a hug but she backed away and hurt my ego a little. I don’t know if I should just focus on myself now to be honest I feel exhausted and I can’t stop thinking about her. Or if should just focus on my scene every night and try to let go.