Trying to manifest my SP

I’m pretty afraid due to past experiences with the same SP, that he’ll pull away if I’m not always bubbly, happy and perfect around him. I’m afraid that he’ll pull away if I complain or get upset with him or in general. And even when I do my best to live in the end state that he loves texting, calling me and spending time with me, he keeps avoiding meeting me and doesn’t text me first. Can someone please help me by putting me in the hotspot so I can change?