Reflecting on the easy meeting

Oh my gosh, please, please don't give up! I know that feeling so well, when it just seems absolutely impossible, like you're trying to fool yourself, or that your real-life, overwhelming emotions are just too strong to ever shift. I was there, totally convinced that trying to feel a warm and easy meeting when I was buzzing with nerves for days beforehand was just a waste of time. My mind kept replaying all the worst-case scenarios, and then I'd try to do my Scrying practice, and it felt completely disingenuous, like I was lying to myself. But here's the thing, you just have to keep showing up for the practice, even when you feel utterly skeptical or like it's making no difference. That little nudge from the app's "My settled-state routine" reminder at 06:30 was actually a lifesaver, because it just kept me coming back, even if it was just for a few minutes each time. You don't have to believe it with every fiber of your being right away; just try to touch that feeling of the end result, even if it's fleeting. Don't stress about the how or the when or the why it will happen, just keep immersing yourself in the sensation of it already being done. Even when it feels fake, or silly, or your logical mind is screaming at you, just keep going. The shift happens, and it's almost always when you least expect it, when you've finally let go of trying to force it. Just keep going, because it really, really does work, even if you can't see the path right now.